As I said “bye” to her, everything is in peace. And I fear. I dont know why. Its been days since the last scribble on this wall. These few days were really rewarding- materialistically, spiritually and emotionally. I have been thinkin to write whenever I felt expressing but I waited everytime for my lap to speak. And in the process I ,now, cant find the words thought then. But still I will try to elongate some moments which could have been one-one title here.
Lets start from a man, cinderrela man. Jimmy, one time boxer who has good number people betting for him lost everything in great depression in America. He has only one thing with him-love of his wife and his children. He fought for them with broken hands and failed and kicked out of the arena. He also had to begged to them like a street-begger(that scene was awesome). But he gets one chance to fight everything back. And he make it. And from there, there was no stopping for that cinderella man. He fought for his love. And he fought to become world heavyweight champion. The story was epical and depiction is magnificient. No better than Russel Crowe for this role of an aged champion fighting for his love and dignity. Some last scenes made everybody in that stinking room cry. In Jimmy Bradock’s words, when asked as for whom he is fighting…he said he is fighting for milk. The devastation of human beings during that period of deppression was superbly shown in that movie. Really shaking and shocking. I can write thesis on this creative brilliance but time, space and mood always limits.
Then came the time for me to resume the war which we have left 1 month back because of those mindless freaks. It was really a horrific experience to read everything once again as if reading for the first time. I imagine how is it to be to give those “back” exams. God save them. It continued for more 10 days with 7 days preparation before the beagule blew. So in total 17 more days of tension and sleeplessness. But as game plays us we cant do anything(in the words of gunu).
But in those days also I found time to visit to another coming-of-age bollywood flick called zinda. Story was copied from some Korean cinema but shown with very sleek way with genuine originality, which is really a fresh and new thing to happen here in market of copycats. Actors played those difficult roles with such ease and class. I just imagine how the directors think of those distinctive colors which describe the movie and its narration. Pain in its raw form was shown with so much detail that the pain can be felt without being applied. Thats what I call is creativity at its peak.
As the mind was jostling its way out of all these adrenaline rushing moments, there came the last blow. It shook us to the bones and carried me to another level of reasoning. I reason now, how can a man, normal as us and sane, can think of showing such a complex human thought with so much ease and with so much impact. Getting into mind of someone else is such a difficult task, this man has not only risked in there but also questioned some leave-it-yaar, are-you-mad or chill-man type of answers. It has something to do with patriotism and freedom struggle. But as I make out, it has to do with our origins. It has to do with our freedom. It has to do with the limit of toleration. And also to realise what one is capable of doing and the way he/she can take. It has to do with reasoning. Reasoning what is right and wrong for me, for us and may be for this country. But as we come to think of the later one, we step back again to those same answers. He challenged them who have devised those answers. Many in the past have tried to do the same stuff to fail with some days of discussion and then bashing as charm go away. But this has to stay and this will ofcourse. Because it doesnt contain those age-old theories and those out-of-the-world characters. Here we have guys with full of blood and full of sperm. They are us. They think like us and answer like us. But one day or one moment changes them or in other words they start delivering those lectures which they have betrayed all their life. Why they did that…because at that point they can only think of that as a solution or because they went restless for their revenge. Or may be some other reason. I never questioned our stand with respect to them because I dont consider them superior but I loved their attitude towards life which they maintained till they die. They got aroused because that moment made them commit, we also would have done that. And we had done such once when he needed us against those 3rd year freaks. I dont think there is anything to learn or follow. What is needed is realisation. He has tried us to realise that we are here for many reasons and many goals. Out of those reasons and goals, one reason is serving the country and goal is to upgrade it. And we can do it in some style of ours but there must be that attitude, that fire and that sense of resposibility. I can device many similarities between cinderella man and those Delhi University hooligans…as expressed by the former which describe the deeds of the later
“I have to believe that when things are bad I can change them”
There can be many more logics applied to this. But I wont to get out everything. I would like to mention about the completeness of the package as it has the maestro rendering the emphatic music so much apt to all the scenarios in the movie. And also the actors in it gave the reason to call that “smashing”.All in all- worth watching.
Now lets end this with one thing for which all of the above is possible. All these are coming straight from my lap. Got it, I dont know how. I just asked for it and they provided without any question. How good can God be. Well , I required that and now I dont know how to handle this. So, let my lap do the talking from now on.
(Writer got a new laptop, on-demand immediately. He cant believe the non-intervening attitude of his parents. There is “khalbali” in his ear-drums still intact. Many things happened to writers’ soul after watching Rakesh Om Prakash’s Rang De Basanti. But one thing he understood from RDB concept is to– “loose control”)
